2/20/2025
Added a new page i'm excited about, at last a real dream journal! For years now i've been posting my dreams on tumblr and had the vague sense I should probably be keeping them a little more organized, however, due to the ephemeral nature of dreams I was reluctant to ever try and ground them down too much. Letting them float around on tumblr felt fine. Still, the idea of having a pretty little page for my dreams was always tempting. I wasn't sure where to start, but since the year 2026 is still *relatively* new I figured I could at least start with 2026 instead of trying to go back and archive Everything right away. Still it could be worth it to eventually go back further. The really important-feeling dreams I try to write down in my private journal as well, but a lot of them don't get documented anywhere other than online. And sometimes I get this bleak feeling that if tumblr were to ever disappear, so many of those dreams would be lost.

But Is A Dream Meant To Be Lost? This has always been the question that halted me from starting a proper dream journal sooner. Am I Trying Too Hard To Hold On? Well. The dream journal is now alive and I feel pleased with it. So who cares. La La La ~

This little project has also helped to break the procrastination cycle I was in with this website. Next i'll be working on creating pages for the huge backlog of photos I have to organize. I figure if I can do one page a day it should only take about a week. Not my favorite task but it's worth it in the end. It makes me feel so much better to have my work up on neocities instead of relying solely on tumblr who's future often feels uncertain in these modern times. That's all for now. x

12/18/2025
After nearly 3 years of operation I finally decided this website ought to have an "updates" page. Maybe it'll help me keep myself organized. And Accountable? I've been struggling to stay consistent in my efforts to maintain a website as I feel pretty existentially confused about the state of the internet right now. But That's Nothing New. idk if i'll ever be truly /Consistent/ but it feels really good whenever I make the effort so I strive to remember The Good Feeling & pursue it more often.

Today I added a few new music pages. A page for My EP respite, and the single murmur. One of my next projects will be revamping the songstar page as i've always felt it to be way too messy & low effort because it was just haphazardly copypasted from a page on my old website.

I'm torn between wanting to overhaul everything on this site or just leaving it be as a time capsule. The Truth Iss... I just feel so different from who I was 3 years ago. Like i'm still Me But i feel so evolved. Maybe the underlying reason I procrastinate so much on updating this website is that it feels like such a direct confrontation with these old parts of me that I wish to forget . . . Or at the very least, move away from.

Anyways, this is all for my first "update". Thanks So Much to anyone who has enjoyed my little website over the years. I'm So Grateful That Neocities Is Holding It Down. !! :heart: