I can only vaguepost so much
Before i have to spill my guts
People wonder why i disappeared

I remember being alive and healthy
Dance for you in the night when nobody would help me
Keep the christmas lights turned on all year

Why am i cold
Lower than dirt
I am so loved
I love to hurt

You had me right where you wanted me
Convinced i was my own enemy

Maybe someday with time
I can forgive myself for my crimes

I keep trying
To rise
Out of my grave
Each night

I'm not crying
I'm just wearing
Blue eyeliner

I'm in your mind
But i'm gone
From your life

Sometimes you miss
What you chose to leave behind
I remember being alive
I remember being alive

(No one ever tried to understand)
(Why did you all leave me behind)
I don't wanna know
How i got so low
It doesn't matter if nobody ever asked me

Oh oh oh
So it goes